Random Musings

I have been incommunibloggo here at Friendster blog for more than a year now. It’s not that I haven’t been on Friendster for the longest time. I’m still here approving friends’ requests, comments, uploading photos, viewing my friend’s profiles, and the like. I couldn’t abandon Friendster just like that.  Friendster blog have introduced me to the blogging world. I can still remember the first ever post I’ve made HERE.

And Friendster itself have brought different meaning into my life. It’s through Friendster that I’ve met my Prince and from then on, life has been very colorful and meaningful. I am able to experience the gift of his love at its best! More than the gift of his love, he was able to enhance my faith. I feel very lucky and I am even more blessed for having him in my life! And together, we have been taking this journey with prayers that one day we will be able to establish a peaceful home based on God’s precepts.

Writing is my passion. I love expressing myself and through this medium I am being transported to a different world… a world of my own that’s quite different from any other world. I have taken blogging seriously for quite sometime now. I’ve even purchased domains of my own. Aside from exercising this passion to its fullest, the perks of blogging motivates me further to be the best blogger I can be. Getting paid for doing what I love is a motivating factor to excel in this field even more.

Even if I couldn’t update my Friendster account more frequently, it doesn’t mean I cease to exist. I am very much fine and alive. Many things have come and gone for the past several months that you maybe unaware of (except for some bloggers that are also in my Friendster list).  I have documented every bits and pieces of me. They may be trivial and of no significance to you but this wouldn’t dissuade me from writing down  whatever comes to mind in random.

My blogs are my babies and I have such very strong attachment to them. My Prince is a very supportive Mahal who thinks that I am the best blogger around, hehe! I hope he is speaking without bias though, haha!

This post comes with a sincere invitation to please feel free to come visit my blogs in your spare time. Do click the widgets and you will be taken there.

I am truly proud and happy that I have brought my blogging this far, and the greatest part about it is all because of the many beautiful people that made my blogging experience wonderful. I will keep blogging my absolute best for you!

Thanks for reading and may you have a fabulous Sunday!

November 10- My favorite team will be playing here in our city versus Santa Lucia Realty. I haven’t seen them play live ever, hehe. My workmate, Karen Alcoseba, knew how I love Ginebra. She told me she has no gift for me on my birthday so she invited me to come with her to see my team’s practice on November 9. I got so excited! After office hour, we went at the City’s gymnasium. There were lots of people watching them rehearse. After the practice, they slowly dispersed but people were asking for their autographs and wanted to have a pose with them. Being a fanatic, I couldn’t just sit there and see those people have a pose with my idols and not have a pose with me, hehe. So with my workmates, Karen Alcoseba, Flordelilyn Magno, Vilma Agulon and me, we took a pose with almost all of the Ginebra players. It was fun, promise, hehehehe. The stars came down just to take some pose with ordinary people like us.

It was only yesterday when I was still playing at children’s playgrounds and parks… It was only yesterday when I turned 18… It was only a few days back when I graduated from college and landed my first job. It was only yesterday when I had my first boyfriend. It was only 4 years ago when I lost my father. It was three years ago when I have been boyfriendless after I had my second boyfriend. It was only a few months back when I met my Prince. It was only yesterday when I turned 28…

My journey through life hasn’t been that easy. Life has been topsy-turvy at times. But everyday is always a blessing. The mere fact that I’m still breathing is more than enough proof that I have been blessed. How can I be able to forget how lucky and blessed I got this year? Three years of waiting for the right person who will be able to make your heart bounce for the rest of your life is such a long time. But everything is all worth the wait. My journey through forever has just began and I can not help but begin to count my blessings by far.

If anyone would ask me how I am, the only answer I can give is that I’m truly happy. It’s true that happiness can not be bought; it’s always felt in the heart. The Lord Almighty has been so good to me all these years, and for that, I return back all the glory to Him!

I am in high spirits at this very moment. You just made me so happy. I feel too excited of what the future may bring us together… I admit I have my “fretting moments” every so often but it pales compared to the joy in my heart right now… I want to stop the clock from ticking and just seize the moment. I don’t want to be lonely again. Please catch me when you feel that I am falling… I just want to be happy and make you happy, too… Just hoping everything will work out fine…

Just got home from a family outing… Dead tired, wheeew! But to be honest, I don’t know what I am actually feeling right now. I want the rain to fall hard because I am sad. See, what a distorted idea!

I am trying to trace the reason for such an emotion but I can’t seem to find some lead to such an unsettling feeling… Perhaps it is my heart being broken and tattered… or maybe because I am simply bored to death… I am losing my cheerful self and happy disposition. I am on the verge of helplessness. Heck!

I want to acknowledge the feeling, absorb it, and just let it pass. But I can’t seem to do it. I feel like a hopeless shit, a damsel in distress. I just want to shun my real emotion to everyone. I feel like life is so damn boring.

Hell! This feeling sucks! Life sucks… Sorry Lord, but I just can’t help myself. Enough of these. I may have gone too far…

Just arrived home… To say that I am full is an understatement… You’ve got to see my tummy, hahaha… A friend invited me out for dinner. Well, it’s impolite to decline the invitation coz I have been jokingly asking him to treat me out sometime, kapal ko, hehe!

Anyways, we just had our yearend thanksgiving this morning. What a year that was! There are so many things that we should thank the Lord for. The space here could not suffice for all the great things the Lord has done for me. But for the sake of blogging, let me just enumerate:

I am still alive and kicking. It is such a blessing that I am still breathing. With the many tragedies that befall man nowadays, it is a stroke of luck that I had my own share of laughs this year and I’m giving back all the glory to Him…

In Best Shape. Though I do not measure 36-24-36, I am in good health and that is all that really matters. I am sane and I still can get my thoughts organized.

A Survivor. Amidst life’s many difficulties and struggles, I was able to surpass it all. Though not as tough as anybody else, I believe I did well.

Sense of Belongingness. It is such a blessing to have my family and friends who would stick with you no matter what. The feeling that you have a home for a refuge is such a relief. Thanks for always soothing my nerves and massaging my ego.

There are still too many to name about God’s glorious deeds and I just can’t help counting them to no avail. It’s C-O-U-N-T-L-E-S-S!

Now, I am humbly offering my thanks and uttermost praises to the Almighty Father whom I believe as the provider of everything – my life, my faith, my inner peace, the material blessings I receive and everything that makes me end each passing day with joy and tranquility. He has indeed done remarkable works not only for me but also to my entire family. Recognizing this, my heart overflow with thankfulness to Him. I know that nothing can be enough to repay God’s infinite goodness. Not even by giving up my own life can I requite for His kindness, for even the very life I have truly belongs to Him. Yet, I am bound always to remember His glorious deeds, to return to Him in genuine recognition of His unfailing love, and to thank Him for being everything to me, for without Him in my life, I’m nothing.

I will learn… not to be that ape… to set myself free from any grudges, ill-feelings, and sufferings…

Whatever is holding me back, I will learn to let go… NO REGRETS, ONLY LESSONS…

I will learn… not to be that naive and innocent anymore…

I will learn… how to defend myself from hurts and pains…

I will learn… how to be smarter than before…

I will learn to be a stronger me… but not a heartless one…

I will learn…not to disappoint people around me that’s giving me support big time…

I will learn… not to bargain my principles and the things that I so deeply believe in…

I will learn to love myself even better…

To each his own is being defined as having a right to one’s personal preferences, as in “I’d never pick that job”, but to each his own.

Why does it seem like anyone who is not happy with his own life has to judge and demean the good things in other people’s life just to make himself feel better? It causes those who are less sure of themselves to question things they thought they knew were a good thing.

Touted as the country’s leading source of employment, many people are drawn to working in call centers. To qualify for the job, one must be very proficient in English, must know how to deal with different kinds of clients on the phone (not to mention irate), learn your way through the American accent, could handle stress very well, etc… Sounds tough? It does for me, not to mention you have to stay awake while all people around you are fast asleep. Night crawlers. They have been that.

I find it hard to figure out why some people think this job in the call center is NOT promising at all. Is it not promising when too many young ones are earning way above than they ever could imagine? Is it not promising when a very young individual gets promoted for having shown excellent performance on his job? While it’s true that as a profession, it has its downsides, but what profession doesn’t have?

We are all entitled to our own opinions and for me, working in the call center is not for everyone. The job needs people who can hurdle all the stress not to mention that you’ve got to have a very good command of the language. In short, it is required that you have that physical and mental stamina to endure the kind of job you’ve chosen.

Well, I am not sure how to handle social talk with people that are willing to say mean things about your life choices. But I would never criticize someone’s profession to their face. If I can’t say anything good about other people’s choices, I better keep my mouth shut.

Sometimes we need that extra push to do things that are hard and other people won’t understand. So anyone out there who thinks they are being put down just because other people think they are different, just try to be strong and realize that no matter how different you are, there are others like you and that you are not alone. You shouldn’t be afraid to be different. You should pity those who are afraid to be themselves…

Why is it so hard to make decisions? Why is it so hard to choose happiness? Is it because we’re afraid that if we do, we’ll be hurting a lot of people? Is it because we’d rather be unhappy and miserable for the rest of our lives just to keep everything as they are? or is it because we’re afraid to lose what we already have? What is there to lose anyway? Isn’t it that if we truly love, everything makes sense and we’ll be able to conquer everything? 

Deciding to do something is just the beginning of more things to come. It doesn’t end there. We can decide to be happy or be unhappy. The question is, are we willing to find our own happiness, even if it means hurting a lot of people? Are we willing to risk everything that we already have just for that one goal? Or do we just keep everything as they are —in secret, complicated, but at least nobody gets hurt because nobody knows. Sooner or later, we will have to decide. And only we can decide for ourselves, that’s the hardest part, i guess. Are we willing to get what we truly want, because deep down in our hearts, in our bones, in our entire being, it feels so right? I think if we follow our hearts, everything will fall into the right places. ..

(Adopted from JET)… I really like the way she’s thinking…